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quiet.
baby is sleeping,
husband is working
nothing but the thoughts in my own head spinning
i want to cry
and cry
my life is nothing like i ever thought it would be

and i am a horrible
horrible person.

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waiting kills me.
i hate it.
i dunno if it's the aries moon or what, but i am an impatient girl.
i always have things to fiddle with (cell phone, digi cam, books) so i never have to truly do nothing while waiting in traffic or at an appointment.
but this is a larger-scale waiting i'm talking about.
waiting for things to happen.
waiting for call backs
and reactions.
waiting for the equal and opposite reaction to my action.
i am squirming and itching.
i get hives.
i'm not a graceful waiter.

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a dorky picture of me. but! i am with tracii guns of la guns outside the viper room.
thanks jerod and bryan for going with me and knowing tracii and getting me this pic.