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the kid fought sleep until 10pm last night. he's already superfussy this morning and i dread leaving him at planet janet. i have fifteen minutes to get out of here. and here i am...updating.
had some crazy dreams.
we were staying with whitney or else she was staying with us, but sam's cousins came to stay too. and then there were these pink polka dot curtains. with huge and varying red dots.

i'm tired. i went to bed at ten.

today when i get back i get to call the intuitive healer. she will channel my energy over the phone and tell me about it for an hour. then i get to ask questions.
maybe my questions will go something like:
what is the direction i am heading? (books v. music)
does my anxiety have anything to do with my iud?
what can i do for my son?

(laughs) remember when i had the free psychic reading? an i didn't get to go to it? but i was supposed to come up with questions for her, too. and everything i tried to come up with to ask i could figure out the answer to myself. same as above. hahahaha. oh well, this mama at school usees this intuitive healer and has great things to say. so i'm game.
the healing part is what sounds good.

i am a busy girl for these next 24 hours. after convention and healing i need to go to whole foods and then i am going to the joint show tonight! i need to see if i can ride with the band cause i don't want to drive there alone. it's on scary pico.

and then tomorrow morning i leave! w00t!

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i just talked to an intuitive healer. i feel so much weight has been lifted off me. i can't even begin...
i wish so bad that sam was here so i could tell him all this, but he has the boy at the park so they could give me space to talk to her.

wow.
i am so floored.

the news: i have a big big hormonal problem. i know that's bad news, but it sounds like music to my ears. you mean this isn't all just ME? it's not all in my head???
she said i need ot have it looked at soon. by a doctor or someone that knows what they are doing. she said she could tell i was into natural healing and she is too (she's a reiki master as well) but that my situation was pretty urgent, and that my imbalance was way way taxing my system. that if i go natural healing it will still resolve itself but that it would take longer. she said she saw specifically that medicine would help me and that she felt it was important to tell me that.

i mean,
wow.

she said that i am dealing with certain issues and that's good, but i don't have to deal with it this way, all intense and everthing at once, because it's hard on me and all my systems. she said she sees a lot of irritation around the iud but it's not neccesarily due to the iud, that some of it could be thyroid and pituitary. she does see that my iud isn't the best choice of birth control for me.

she said that ijah is protected by a big bubble of light, and there is a grandmother (mine!!) from the spiritworld that is with him and gives him lots of support. she says he talks to spirits a lot and that he has a pure purpose in this life and that he will be able to define pretty early on what his purpose is.

i am so wiped out. i mean, i feel a hella lot better. she said the best thing for me to do right now would be to go on vacation and that's exactly what i'm doing. i can see how talking to her could get addictive. damn. i cried and cried pretty much from the moment i got on the phone with her. a lot of this stuff just came OUT, and she said she could see and tell. she said she could tell right away that it's hormonal, and that it's a pretty crazy situation.

oh.
oh.
oh.