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it's gonna be an lj kind of day.
i can tell already.
we had a field trip this morning to a museum that i didn't think would really benefit ijah.
(and
i was scared to go and stand myself up in front of those mamas and so obviously need a friend.)
i was thinking he wouldn't know about it but he brought it up this morning. so i bought him off with videos.
we emptied out the piggy bank for the funds.

now i am going to work on my bookstore for two hours before i do anything recreational on the computer at all.

gotta use bob the builder to my advantage.

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getting a lot of work done.
i feel like i am coming out of something, this negative selfimage.
who says i wasted my life?

work is good for you.

cleaned, numbered, and entered books.
sent check off for my title. i think that now i never got it, and i was thinking that tax license thing was it this whole time, and i have been looking for something that never came.
maybe.
(i think whatever i need to to keep my little world in order.)

(but doesn't everyone?)

mailed some stuff, called and found out we really do have insurance, took bubba to the park and let him run up and down the hill.

people are so beautiful, walking around this city. ok, i know i'm not psychic, and i don't know how to say this, but i get rushes of feelings when i look at people. not like, a set of opinions i garner from looking at their appearences, but like a rush of empathetic information. a rush of feelings. does everyone get that? i also see colors around people, but it's hard on the street sometimes to see colors because they are going by so fast. but the feelings always come.it's an energy thing i guess.
it fucking overwhelms me and knocks me down sometimes.
it's like i can't take being so drawn into every person i pass by on the street. it's sort of draining.

scorpion intuition?

ok, off track.
back to working.

i will make some money.
i WILL.

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